How many times you gonna try to make me crawl back
Think you can trick me like I'm Mickey with a mouse trap
I started sleeping with the door cracked, the door cracked, the door cracked
How many times I see you dancing in my nightmares
I wake up tossing and I'm tangled in your cross hairs
I want to tell her but I'm too scared, I'm too scared, I'm too scared
She asked me why I seem distracted again
I said it's nothing but I'm playing pretend
I thought I started fresh, but overlapped with the end
Thought we were past this, left it in the past tense
She wants the real thing, you wanted magic
She wants the whole me, you kept a fraction
I want a clean break, you won't let me have it, honey
Oh, how did we ever get so ugly?
She wants the real me, you wanted plastic
She wants a sure hand, you want dramatics
I found a safe place, you call it tragic, honey
Oh, I wish we didn't need to be so ugly,
I wish you didn't need to hate that she loves me
How many times I've said "I'm fine" but I haven't told her
When she can see I'm hesitating getting closer
Can't see the devil on my shoulder, my shoulder, my shoulder
How many nights have we spent digging up the recap
You plant a garden just to cover up the rough patch
You know we always bring the weeds back, the weeds back, the weeds back
Thought I was ready so I'm turning the page
But the paper stuck together, now I'm walking in place
I wanted black and white but now I'm stuck in the grays
Though we were past this, left it in the past tense
She wants the real thing, you wanted magic
She wants the whole me, you kept a fraction
I want a clean break, you won't let me have it, honey
Oh, how did we ever get so ugly?
She wants the real me, you wanted plastic
She wants a sure hand, you want dramatics
I found a safe place, you call it tragic, honey
Oh, I wish we didn't need to be so ugly,
I wish you didn't need to hate that she loves me
You snap your fingers, I'm automatic
You know my triggers, I'm like an addict
I thought we promised to take away the matches,
But you still like to linger in the ashes
She wants the real thing, you wanted magic
She wants the whole me, you kept a fraction
I want a clean break, you won't let me have it, honey
Oh, how did we ever get so ugly?
She wants the real me, you wanted plastic
She wants a sure hand, you want dramatics
I found a safe place, you call it tragic, honey
Oh, I wish we didn't need to be so ugly,
I wish you didn't need to hate that she loves me